Yes I'm Still Alive

Hello world! So I haven't posted since before classes started. I have been to all of my classes now and it feels good to be getting back into the swing of things. Granted I already am tired of doing homework but it feels good to be busy. It has made me do some thinking about the future. I am getting excited about doing my internship next spring and graduation. I have had several friends buy the first homes within the past year or so.  It is getting me excited about getting a real job and saving money to buy a house of my own. Even though I am excited to have my happily ever after (even though I know that is not how the real world works) I am excited to possibly by a home on my own in my future and really stand on my own two feet. If I happen to find someone in-between then thats ok too ;) But I am not going to change my life around any more for anyone but me :)

And for crafty news I am teaching myself how to crochet! It is something I have wanted to learn how to do a while and I got very determined last Sunday to figure it out. So with the help of a book I got for a graduation present from one of my Mom's friends and youtube I was able to figure it out.... for the most part. I think I have ripped out the scarf I am working on about 6 times but I think I have finally figured it out! Picture added!! This was the start to my scarf!

Laundry calls!

A new semester

With classes starting on Tuesday I decided it was time to clean out the old notebooks and get them ready for the new semester. At the end of every semester I clean out my notebooks and put the one semester into one notebook so I can reuse my notebooks. I used to buy new notebooks every semester but I realized I am not as hard on my notebooks as I used to be. As I was cleaning them out I felt this great sense of starting new. With the craziness that happened at the end of last semester it was nice to be putting it all behind me. I just want to jump up and down and say hahaha this break up is not gonna keep me down! Here I come Spring Semester!!

Now with getting the notebooks ready for next semester that also means printing out new syllabuses (syllabi? any who). I am very excited about this semester because I think I will be re-inspired to become a school counselor. However it isn't going to be an easy one. It looks like I will have a lot of reading but thats grad school for you!

Since I got my cleaning and organizing all done before lunch how to spend the rest of my day?
Paint? Scrapbook? Knit? Be lazy?

Rainy Days

I am really starting to think I have that seasonal depression or something. It has never been that noticeable until I moved to Boone. However the weather is so gross up here most of the winter I can't help but feel blah on rainy cold days. Today is one of those rainy cold gross days. Work was fine actually pretty good. We got to go on some rainy day walks which always makes the day go by faster. Ever since I got home I have been in one of those blah moods. And even though I hate to admit it Jeff has been on my mind because today should have been his first day of work in Colorado. I am happy to say that this is the last date that I know about Jeff. Hopefully nothing else comes up that will bother me date wise. I have been trying everything I know to distract myself and cheer myself up but nothing seems to be helping. I still feel blah.... It has got to be this damn weather... its so gross outside! I have been watching the TV show Felicity on netflixs. One of the characters is torn between an ex and a new girl and he made a comment talking to the new girl about how just because he has feelings for a new person doesn't mean he doesn't mean he doesn't still have feelings for the ex. When I heard that it kind of hit me like a ton of bricks. Even though I am starting to feel more like me again and taking baby steps forward I will still have feelings for Jeff. I probably will for the rest of my life considering everything that happened. I guess I am just suppose to suppress those feelings the best I can and think about something else? I think I am just being more sensitive about this because I started my period today. Blah being a girl blows haha! Ugg I wish I could just lay in the sun at the beach!

This is a picture of my sisters and I from a few years ago at the beach. Look at how nice and tan I am! 

Moving Forward

Well here I am with this whole blogging thing again. As many of you know that my last blog was about being engaged to a man in the Army and being in a long distance relationship. Well this blog is going to be all about me. Me, my "doodles", and my cooking adventures. Since my breakup I have been thinking about deactivating my Facebook account so this will be a way for those people who really care to keep up with what is going on in my life.

Well here is my first doodle of the new year. I have been wanting to paint or make something to put in my bathroom. Well this past Sunday I was sitting in church and thinking about how I wanted to do some self care that afternoon. I had had a dream earlier in the weekend about Jeff and I had been praying for peace from the dream and from the mess with Jeff. I was thinking about things that brought me peace and I thought about the serenity prayer that my parents have hanging in the hallway at home. Whenever I see it in the hallway or anywhere really it just simple brings me peace and makes me feel stronger. So I decided that is what I wanted to hang in my bathroom.

I had a blank canvas and my Mom had given me a new Circuit cartridge for Christmas that I was eager to use. Here is the result. I am pretty happy with it!